Before you were born, you knew that you were coming to an environment that was going to stimulate your evolution. You knew this environment would extract from your new desires, that would encourage you to make decisions and take action in the direction of becoming the person that you really ARE. Many things that you have experienced in your childhood, and that apparently “went wrong”, were actually your first teachers to teach you exactly what you DO NOT WANT. Those experiences in your initial consciousness caused you pain, and for humans, that is our first step for expansion.
The expansion is inevitable after pain. As humans, we have resisted so hard against “the bad” things that happened to us in early childhood, and we have bought into the belief that feeling those “bad” things make ourselves weak, bad and unworthy of pleasure. Sometimes we even prefer to erase all memories related, as a coping mechanism, because your mind wouldn´t be able to deal with all the pain that those unintegrated memories can release inside you. And yes, feeling pain is not beautiful, however feeling and integrating whatever defined our initial pain is absolutely necessary in order to let it go and becoming able and free to choose pleasure instead of pain.
As children, we feel the pain and protect against it according to our parents’ beliefs of “good” and “bad”. And then, as adults, we build the need for labeling things as “good” or “bad” according to our beliefs and definitions of fear and pain. You can find yourself always looking for protection, always acting in defensiveness, always vibrating as a victim of life, and perpetuating as a habit of thought and behavior that keeps yourself stuck in the sensation of unworthiness.
Realizing all things that have “gone wrong”, and integrating the “goods” and “bads” of childhood is crucial in your evolution. You cannot move forward until you lovingly accept all of who you ARE, now. Most people, buy into the victimhood belief for longer than needed.
However, every day more and more people are starting to wake up to their real power. And once you decide to recover your power, you reach a NEW CONSCIOUSNESS, from which you understand the importance of everything you did not want, and you also take full RESPONSIBILITY and you take ownership of those experiences. Now you understand that you are the creator of all the things you have lived up until now. Each and every one of the experiences, even those in which you played a “role” as a helpless victim child, was a chosen experience that contributes to your expansion.
Many people, more than we recognize, have suffered from some kind of “unwanted” experience in the sexual / emotional / physical / psychological field in childhood. That part of our history defines us at a subconscious level and conditions our patterns of thought and behavior if not released. Unwanted experiences in childhood limit us “in silence”, in the silent voice of our minds letting us know we are not worthy. Every time we see something that we “want to experience”, we convince ourselves in our internal dialogue that it is not possible for us because we have “something wrong”, a “something wrong” that generates shame to integrate. And we can stay in that consciousness for longer than necessary.
Today I invite you to realize that whatever you experienced that created trauma inside you, is inevitably creating an expansion for you. Being able to see your contrast with this new perspective, gives you a choice, to keep unconsciously recreating “unwanted” scenarios of feeling a victim of life, or getting your power back and start creating a beautiful life. Don´t be afraid to release past memories, even if painful, because everything that is saved by “shame” becomes a pain for you and your future generations. Simply look out for the right person who can guide you upward in your emotional journey.