Have you ever had surgery as a young child? Have you ever witnessed something horrific? Have you ever been in a bad accident, whether physically hurt or not?
All of these things impact our energy field and if they happen when we are young children they can get stuck in our energy field. When we are cut open for surgery, our energy body does not know the difference of being surgically sliced open or being stabbed! It is a violation to our energy. When we are children it is especially traumatic because we are taken away from our parents, we usually don’t understand fully what is going on, then there’s the anesthetic…
So what’s the big deal you wonder? That happened ages ago, not losing any sleep over it, yet maybe you have pain in your body for no apparent reason. Maybe you tend to hold your breath, maybe it has registered in another way, emotionally perhaps. Fear. Mistrust. Imbalanced boundaries. Escapism.
I had hernia surgeries at 5 and 6 years old, one on each side from a tricycle accident and a climbing frame mishap. For one of those surgeries I remember the mask coming over my face and seeing the doctors face with his own mask on above, it’s a visual imprint that I’ve always remembered.
He was nice, he told me not to worry…but then, I felt the scalpel cutting me open! It didn’t hurt, probably enough anesthetic had gone in by then, but I could feel the pressure as if you would trail your nail sideways over your skin. It freaked me out. I already had authority issues from being held in at birth, but that’s another story!
They had used surgical glue, a new technique back in the ’60s, to close me up. I had scabs which concerned me greatly because I was so afraid of them ripping off. I was afraid of diving off the diving board at the pool in case I hit the edge of the board and ripped myself open again. I was afraid to touch my bikini line. As I grew, my scars got lower. As a young woman, it affected intimacy with men because I would freak out if anyone touched me there.
I did a lot of healing work to get over the paranoia of being touched low on my bikini line. But even still 50 years later during intense myofascial release bodywork being touched with any pressure, fully clothed over or near the hernia scars is really uncomfortable. I’ve had my appendix out since then, as an adult, a much bigger more serious operation and scar and have absolutely no issues with that, but a couple of inches down…ugh.
When in surgery there are ventilators doing the breathing for you, expanding and contracting your diaphragm, under stress that could cause all sorts of digestion issues, or not breathing deeply enough, any multitude of unrecognized problems. Interestingly in exploring why I have any pain in my body, the lower back stuff is directly behind where the hernia scars are on my front side. I don’t lose any sleep over this of course, but when surgery is coupled with childhood trauma it gets trapped in your cellular structure and your body effectively “behaves” as though it is still going through it.
What if it wasn’t surgery but a bad accident or witnessing some horror? The same thing happens, in that moment of impact, visual or physical it is a huge shock to our little child systems, we contract when we are shocked and that wounding gets trapped there. Then all of the symptoms develop over time, escapism, boundary issues, mistrust, anger, fear. We grow up holding all of this stress in our bodies and wonder why we just can’t “step into our power” or “let go” or “forgive” or, or, or…the list is endless.
The trauma, of course, doesn’t just happen when we are children, as adults, we can suffer post-traumatic stress from a multitude of circumstances and that is usually on top of our core wounding as children. Remember it is just our perception of how we experience that event that gets us through it either easily with no drama or with struggle and resistance. But children don’t often have all the clarity they need around having surgery, or having had a bad accident or witnessing something awful. We need to dig deep and clear the shock and trauma that’s trapped in our cells so we can live and breathe easier and have a joyful pain free life.