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My Journey to Awakening

What about a time when you felt like life was upside down for you? How did you get some relief? Were you able to pull it together so you could breathe? 

When you awaken spiritually and know that you are on a journey that leads to a destination that you know not of, then you are ready to move.  Sometimes the move is physical, other times it is mental. 

For me, it was both physical and mental. I knew that there was a place I needed to go, but how I was to get there was the mystery. I had a calling to do something special in this world and I knew that this little black girl from Savannah, Georgia had something to say and there are people who need to listen. 

It has been an amazing journey. I have learned how to look within, I have learned how to listen to my higher self, I have learned to trust the power within. This has been an uncomfortable transition of leaving everything I knew and everyone I have known to go to a place where I knew one person. One person who was jealous of me in secret. 

As I pondered my future, without work, and in a strange place where I had no roots, no friends, no associates, no former bosses, no network, and no prospects. I began to get sick in ways that I had never been in the past. I began to have doubts about how I was going to make it, and not only how, but if I was going to make it.  My body began to fail me in ways that I had not experienced. I started having high blood pressure, which I had never had before, I began to have terrible pains in my stomach and nausea and vomiting that persisted for days. I thought I was on my way to meet my maker.

I had things going on inside my head that maybe I wasn’t supposed to be here, that possibly I had made a mistake. I thought that I needed to regroup and return to what was familiar and comfortable. I had suffered from depression secretly for years and not very many people who know me knew that I dealt with depression on that level.

I started reading everything I could to help me understand the changes going on in my body and my mind. I sought out teachers either in person, online or in books who could help me to make the adjustment I was being called to make. I met a kind gentleman who introduced me to the bach flower remedies and the power that I possessed that I had no clue how to activate. He showed me that my destiny was here where I had moved and that I had been called to this place by the Universe.

I was always a spiritual person; however, I was awakening to the power of my intuition and the call that was on my life to help others to follow their path, a path that may not be understood by others in their circle, a path that may not be popular.

The path is windy and sometimes arduous; however, it is a journey that I wouldn’t trade for anything. The journey to trusting my intuition has been a work in progress. I heard myself say that I am grateful for the trip when talking to new acquaintances. I imagined a smoother transition; however, I am at a different place than I was when I made the trip.

I am surer of myself, and my intuitive decisions and now know what I am called to do to help others on that path. I am called to show them how to move their mountains and live a life of complete surrender to the Universe or higher power. I am supposed to speak to the masses and be a way shower.  I am supposed to use my life as a template for trusting your intuition and not allowing the fire that burns inside to extinguish while you sit in fear and distrust of knowing what road to take.

 

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