How do you know what you currently like is really what you like? This was a question I very much started to embrace for myself a few years ago. I had asked myself this question many times during the course of my life, but I had not taken it as far as I could have each time.
In college, I was seeing a therapist and one of the many conversations we had that has stuck with me was I told her I just wanted to be normal and she asked me to tell her what normal is and where did I learn it from? As I answered the question, the answers were all external, there was no inner reflection from me, just what external influences had taught or programmed me to believe was normal and what I should like.
Some things I thought of while thinking and feeling through where I had learned who I wanted to be, as normal and what I should like:
Your parents tell you what you should like.
TV tells you what you should like.
Social media tells you what you should like.
School tells you what you should like.
Friends told by the same sources, tell you what you should like.
The laws tell you what you should like.
External people and influences tell you what you should like.
Wow, these are where I was getting my influences. None of which was me. I found that time with myself, meditation, going inward. Asking why? Asking, who am I? Asking for divine inspiration and direction. Divinity being ones Higher Self. The self of you, that sees all.
Some things I learned in this experience :
You’ve forgotten who you are and you also have free will. You have to seek who you are and give permission for your Higher Self to assist and guide you. You have to ask for authenticity in your life.
When we know who we are authentically, we can manifest whatever we desire. When we are authentic and we are coming from our true place of knowing, our true place of who we are, then our power is available. This knowing is balance. Because with great power, comes great responsibility.
Taking this deeper:
Because many of us have been manifesting desires, but not necessarily our own desires, rather desires from external influence. These external influences use us to manifest what they want, by influencing us through external influences like social media, laws, schools, society norms, religion, race, wars, etc. We have the power to break the chain which is dragging us into these external influencers influence and use of our manifestation, by discovering who we authentically are.
When we allow ourselves to explore who we are, by questioning who we are and putting aside external influences, we eventually come to a Blissful feeling of sovereignty. We also feel more of ‘all that is’ inside of us and around us. We feel more connected. With this we are also able to feel and see what we are manifesting and evaluate if we are manifesting for what we authentically want or if we are manifesting for an outside influences.
When authentic desire is matched with law of attraction then the manifestation is mirrored with happiness and bliss.
When the law of attraction is mudded with social programming and desire of an influencer, then happiness and bliss is always something in the distance. When I have this, then I’ll be happy. Then you get it and you’re not happy, so you find something else to manifest for happiness and you’re still not happy. Then you believe you need more more more and then you’ll be happy, eventually realizing that these manifestations are not making you happy. Or the manifestations don’t come because you are not authentic in what you’re asking for. You cannot trick or fool you’re higher self. The ask must be authentic in order to manifest. And then the happiness and bliss come if the authentic is mirrored with love for self in the asking.