I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder with Agoraphobic tendencies in 2004. I have since realized that I am “gifted”, not cursed. I have been studying holistic healing modalities since 2005 to heal myself.
I feel led to help others now and I am terrified. I feel others pain and mental issues. When I go to the grocery store, my head rings, my stomach knots up and if I don’t pay attention, I will get sick. I have learned to calm the noise a bit, even if I am unsure what the ringing means. My last “episode” was in line for a concert with my fiancé, and every time this one doorman came out, I would get an excruciating pain in my lower back. I was afraid to confront him about it. What am I supposed to say? “How long has your back been hurting like this…?”
Anyhow, I want to help others through Reiki, Crystal Therapy, food, clothing, and accessories. But I don’t know where to start or even if I am heading in the right directions. Do I need more training? I keep feeling called to learn more about shamanism first… But I am completely unsure. Please help!!
Blessings and light to you always,
Timid Oregon Healer
When we spoke, I told her I felt something had changed as in “partnership”. She said, “Yes, I got married since I wrote in!” Great! I congratulated her and began to tune into my intuition so I could answer her questions and help her where she needed insight.
I told her I felt she was trapped in fear for a long time and had suffered a great deal but that part of her life was now over. “Does that resonate with you?” I asked. “Yes,” she replied, “I was with a narcissist and finally got away from him.” At this point, I knew I needed to address the first part of her concerns, so I asked her how she was doing with the “Anxiety Disorder and Agoraphobic tendencies”. She said that she still had them but was working on them through meditation and working with some healers.
My feeling was that she is Empathic (feels energy and emotions of others deeply) and as this came into my awareness, I clairvoyantly could see that she has been walking around with her Crown Chakra WIDE open for quite some time, resulting in her being very ungrounded. I brought this up to her and she was shocked! She stated that she had been working on opening up her “gifts” but was unaware that she needed to shut the Crown Chakra down at times. I explained that while walking around wide open like that, she was absorbing all the energy around her, positive and negative, and most likely she was feeling anxiety because she had become ungrounded. We talked in depth about how to work with the Chakras, clearing herself regularly and staying grounded. We were making progress with the initial part of her inquiry.
Next, I felt strongly that she had proceeded to work on or even open some type of business, and she confirmed, yes, indeed she had started her spiritual business. Immediately I felt short of breath and stressed! I’m also an Empath, and I knew that it was her energy I was picking up on, not mine. I brought this up, and she confirmed, “Yes, I often feel this way.” My intuition guided me to ask about the business and if she had customers as I felt this business was the cause of the shortness of breath and stress. She said, “A few, mostly friends and other healers, we have been exchanging for services and I’m not making money!” I knew right away the scales were unbalanced in these exchanges of services.
I explained why the bartering system is a bad idea, someone usually gets their service but somehow it’s not reciprocated to the one giving the service. Everything is energy, and when that energy is given out but not returned, we become depleted. I explained that she needed to see herself and her services as valuable and if these people did not want to pay, it’s ok because she would be creating an opening to attract paying clients who would value her and her services as long as she holds on to the belief of being valuable.
I felt like she had numerous “takers” in her life past and present, I could actually see them in my mind’s eye “plugging” into her energy and draining her. I asked her about this, and she confirmed that everyone comes to her for everything all the time. I explained what I was seeing and feeling about the “plug-ins” who were zapping her energy. It was an eye opener, once she could wrap her head around the visual that I was seeing in my mind and she agreed that was definitely the case. I suggested to her that she needed to work on her “boundaries” and be very clear on what was “healthy” for her. Once she was clear on what that looked like, she would need to convey that to the ones who were plugging into her energetically. Assuring her that it would take some practice to turn this around and in time it would all work out. I reminded her that we train people how to treat us so she could retrain them lovingly.
As we were getting to the end of the call, my mediumship abilities kicked in! I asked if her Dad was in spirit. She confirmed. I then asked if she lived on a piece of property with many fields. Again, she confirmed. I said, “I’m seeing you walk around the fields pouring your heart out to your Dad verbally…” describing the scenery, what her Dad was like in personality, etc…. Then I asked, “Do you do this often?” She burst out with tears of joy! I was accurate, and he popped in to let her know he indeed is with her by her side in those moments when she is walking in the field. It was so sweet to have him come in!
The last thing that I felt was that her desire to proceed with the Shamanism had fallen to the wayside, she confirmed and was good with her decision. Feeling confident that all her concerns were addressed, I asked if she was happy with the results. She replied, “Yes! You really helped me gain insight into these issues and guidance on how to turn things around.” She thanked me and promised to update me in the future!